its public!
anyone visiting is welcome to drop in a tear..coz this pathetic punching bag-yours truly-has got just that one shame left to endure,n he wanna experience it all 'dough-all in this life only! :))
fed up of everything
the last two days have been nothing short of hell.... still survived..dont know how long can pull this through though...had faced this ordeal once beforehand...guess being a kid then helped..but unfortunately with the passing years while ive grown up physically the heart has refused to comply,stubbornly...its still fuckingly naive.n that doesnt help.
one gash was enough to test my spirits, god-i' wasnt ready as hell for another-whatever people say,or whatever i try to prove externally all the time-deep inside i know i'm not strong enough.havent been able to forget those nightmares i still get sometimes.
not gonna dive in that mess again-m not gonna get anyone get even remotely close to my vulnerable self.infact lets go on and live life king size dude-as my friends here say-its a fresh feeling of sorts-being all alone again..party hard,set your priorities,organise life..loads to do-but somehow the hitch stays-dont think i will be able to go on this time.
tell you what- i dont want to,either.
one gash was enough to test my spirits, god-i' wasnt ready as hell for another-whatever people say,or whatever i try to prove externally all the time-deep inside i know i'm not strong enough.havent been able to forget those nightmares i still get sometimes.
not gonna dive in that mess again-m not gonna get anyone get even remotely close to my vulnerable self.infact lets go on and live life king size dude-as my friends here say-its a fresh feeling of sorts-being all alone again..party hard,set your priorities,organise life..loads to do-but somehow the hitch stays-dont think i will be able to go on this time.
tell you what- i dont want to,either.
its a new world,its a new start...
really.was listening to this number from the god(he has chosen to take the name bryan adams when he sings)n somehow it still seemed fresh.wanna start fresh.wanna be more composed this time.life here at IITK is hectic,to say the least.however,in one year ,this institute has taught me much.it has made me more perserving and sometimes i feel more grown up.
the last year was memorable and equally forgettable -tried my hands on many things-landing successfully at most of the things,but failing miserably on the front which decides almost everything here @ IITK-academics.did i say that i have grown up a bit in the last year?well,the time to put it to test is here ;)
according to the "experienced" seniors here,the third sem is one of the most f*cked up semesters of the entire course-you get an abominable mix of departmentals and general subjects like maths-and you have to tolerate both .thanks however to my luck that i'm not in some holy sh*t like the EE people ,at least we aero heroes wont have to tolerate any loady labs this sem.this really gives people like me a chance to improve--and this is the only reason i have a smile playing on my lips as i type this.just 18 credits,and the time to act mature is now.
thinking of that,of course only a week has passed-and it would be too early to comment-but fortunately uptil now everything is going cool.and mind you,this is an achievement of sorts,esp for me.
the last year was memorable and equally forgettable -tried my hands on many things-landing successfully at most of the things,but failing miserably on the front which decides almost everything here @ IITK-academics.did i say that i have grown up a bit in the last year?well,the time to put it to test is here ;)
according to the "experienced" seniors here,the third sem is one of the most f*cked up semesters of the entire course-you get an abominable mix of departmentals and general subjects like maths-and you have to tolerate both .thanks however to my luck that i'm not in some holy sh*t like the EE people ,at least we aero heroes wont have to tolerate any loady labs this sem.this really gives people like me a chance to improve--and this is the only reason i have a smile playing on my lips as i type this.just 18 credits,and the time to act mature is now.
thinking of that,of course only a week has passed-and it would be too early to comment-but fortunately uptil now everything is going cool.and mind you,this is an achievement of sorts,esp for me.
after a long time
returned to blogger after a long time.its rather typical,you get a sudden urge to write,and when you start,for 5 mins (at least) you continue wondering what in the f*****g world are you trying to do.as i said,rather a typical problem ,seeing the blog pages being created published and appreciated around the world ,every nanosecond.i will honestly confess it was the growing popularity of blogosphere that drew me in it initially,but i also wont be lying if i said that popularity or not,if it wasnt for some real compelling times when i had no one to talk to that i joined blogger,more as a way to let off steam than to publish my reflections on nothing in particular.Of course it helps,but as i said,the typical problem continues to date :)
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