Unbecoming Engineers

was browsing through JAM ,and found this article..really interesting read..the author is an IITian(product of IITD),and this article is something the entire (well,as the author himself points out,almost entire) student fraterntity,especially those persuing their studies at the "prestigious" IITs can relate to quite easily.the approach is refreshingly non-prejudiced("is it sufficient that a lot of people think we are doing something good? I don't really know. I would have pondered more and worried myself to death over the future of my beloved country. But the fatigue of my suddenly over-exercised mind now threatens to drown me and I know very soon I'm going to revert back to my utopian world of egocentricity" )...the column caught me off-guard..and kept it right there.
have a lot more to say..not now though.ciao my adrenaline,later!

what am i doing at this unearthly hour

not mugging,nor listening to music,neither is there any novel beside me..heheh..take a wild,wild guess and you might turn out to be right...ha ha!did i say i was unpredictable!

serious stuff again-deepshikha has got tons and loads of circuiting to be done-all the the batti work is awe-inspiring if not impossible...just get the feeling,there's a long day ahead tomorrow...

i'm back!

been out of blogger for a long time..feel ki baat hai bhai..heheh.am in a real chill mood rite now.pull my ears and u'll get a kiss back in return..that s how it goes.
got our mumbai tickets booked today..today is the day it has started feeling real.mumbai as a city has fascinated me since childhood.i remember cutting out an ICICI bank advertisement which
had the picture of marine drive in night and pasting it on my room's wall :D...i have always wanted to visit that city.god,am i excited!though personally the few frends who have been there have not given the best of reviews of mumbai as a holiday destination,yet somewhere i know i am gonna enjoy the experience to the hilt.

hall 5 !
Deepayan-even they could not pronounce it properly in the end.perhaps it was symbolic of how the event was-insipid.the musicals were drag,the dance decent,the structures almost comical and the skit unnecessecarily loud yet flat.missed the chorero-thankfully!the food was good ,and my heart went out to sudip and prashant when they explained how only a handful of guys had put all the show up-hall 5 is never gonna be the same again-all the aura of a third yearite hostel long gone,but things are only get better from now on..i mean,c'mon,it was their first show!dunno though how deepshikha's shaping out.dont like the feel of it-even though i know there are ramu and others toiling out at this unearthly hour,but we definitely expected a better participation from the Y7 junta-especially considering how we have got to live up to the hype created by last year's deepshikha.day after tomorrow will tell.


yahoo! i got my first preference in HSS-philosophy.really wanted to explore this course after the English literature course last year.I've found myself actually enjoying these art courses-more than the nerdy ones-strange as it seems-still.the course content was stimulating -metaphysics and a debate on atheism among others.the instructor seems a bit of an issue,and i was really torn between choosing this course and the logic course(that would have enhanced my computing knowledege as well and the content seemed quite intersting too)-still i hope it will be worth it.

And At Last..
endsems are on head-padhai shuru karne ka time aa hi gaya finally agar kuch bhi izzat bachani hai-varna is baar to 1-2 fakke pakke hi hain.still i find myself on the verge of another nightout with my gang(they are watching a movie as usual,and i am not interested and tinkering with my lappy as usual :D ).listening to Hotel California by Eagles-this song has me hooked for the time being.guess the movie is almost over,judging by the movements on the opposite side of the room-its almost 6.time for the MT to open-and time to end another night out with a sutta-ciao!

On the street you are listening to every beat of your heart
Want to know if it's working and you're still alive
On your feet you are walking around with your clothes torn apart
In a nightmare where the question is how to survive

In this dangerous land
I'm trying the best that I can
to be a respectable man
So won't you listen won't you listen to me

I'm breaking the law if you don't give me more than public attention
I'm breaking the rules gonna act like a fool

On the street you are looking so hard for a place for the night
All you want is understanding of your basic rights

In this dangerous land
I'm trying the best that I can
to be a respectable man
So won't you listen won't you listen to me

I'm breaking the law if you don't give me more than public attention
I'm breaking the rules gonna act like a fool
I'm crossing the line if you don't give me time on your television
I've got something to say don't push me away

(MLTR -breaking the rules)

3 AM we seemed alright

iitk is a whole new world.one keeps on discovering new things on a regular basis.Academically,have never felt so crappy in my life..when marks were not breezing by in the first(or second ;) ) sem,we had a consolation-we hadnt studied to deserve good grades-but as i said,life teaches you new things here-the more you study-the more you come to realize how far away you are from perfection...this sem has been on the exact lines.full stop.

p.s-as the number " 3 AM" by poets of the fall plays in the background,couldnt help but agreeing with these people...

its public!

anyone visiting is welcome to drop in a tear..coz this pathetic punching bag-yours truly-has got just that one shame left to endure,n he wanna experience it all 'dough-all in this life only! :))

fed up of everything

the last two days have been nothing short of hell.... still survived..dont know how long can pull this through though...had faced this ordeal once beforehand...guess being a kid then helped..but unfortunately with the passing years while ive grown up physically the heart has refused to comply,stubbornly...its still fuckingly naive.n that doesnt help.
one gash was enough to test my spirits, god-i' wasnt ready as hell for another-whatever people say,or whatever i try to prove externally all the time-deep inside i know i'm not strong enough.havent been able to forget those nightmares i still get sometimes.
not gonna dive in that mess again-m not gonna get anyone get even remotely close to my vulnerable self.infact lets go on and live life king size dude-as my friends here say-its a fresh feeling of sorts-being all alone again..party hard,set your priorities,organise life..loads to do-but somehow the hitch stays-dont think i will be able to go on this time.
tell you what- i dont want to,either.

its a new world,its a new start...

really.was listening to this number from the god(he has chosen to take the name bryan adams when he sings)n somehow it still seemed fresh.wanna start fresh.wanna be more composed this time.life here at IITK is hectic,to say the least.however,in one year ,this institute has taught me much.it has made me more perserving and sometimes i feel more grown up.
the last year was memorable and equally forgettable -tried my hands on many things-landing successfully at most of the things,but failing miserably on the front which decides almost everything here @ IITK-academics.did i say that i have grown up a bit in the last year?well,the time to put it to test is here ;)
according to the "experienced" seniors here,the third sem is one of the most f*cked up semesters of the entire course-you get an abominable mix of departmentals and general subjects like maths-and you have to tolerate both .thanks however to my luck that i'm not in some holy sh*t like the EE people ,at least we aero heroes wont have to tolerate any loady labs this sem.this really gives people like me a chance to improve--and this is the only reason i have a smile playing on my lips as i type this.just 18 credits,and the time to act mature is now.
thinking of that,of course only a week has passed-and it would be too early to comment-but fortunately uptil now everything is going cool.and mind you,this is an achievement of sorts,esp for me.

after a long time

returned to blogger after a long time.its rather typical,you get a sudden urge to write,and when you start,for 5 mins (at least) you continue wondering what in the f*****g world are you trying to do.as i said,rather a typical problem ,seeing the blog pages being created published and appreciated around the world ,every nanosecond.i will honestly confess it was the growing popularity of blogosphere that drew me in it initially,but i also wont be lying if i said that popularity or not,if it wasnt for some real compelling times when i had no one to talk to that i joined blogger,more as a way to let off steam than to publish my reflections on nothing in particular.Of course it helps,but as i said,the typical problem continues to date :)


sometimes you are perfect ,sometimes you are just not enough...and sure as a red tomato life goes on ..heheh.