On the street you are listening to every beat of your heart
Want to know if it's working and you're still alive
On your feet you are walking around with your clothes torn apart
In a nightmare where the question is how to survive

In this dangerous land
I'm trying the best that I can
to be a respectable man
So won't you listen won't you listen to me

I'm breaking the law if you don't give me more than public attention
I'm breaking the rules gonna act like a fool

On the street you are looking so hard for a place for the night
All you want is understanding of your basic rights

In this dangerous land
I'm trying the best that I can
to be a respectable man
So won't you listen won't you listen to me

I'm breaking the law if you don't give me more than public attention
I'm breaking the rules gonna act like a fool
I'm crossing the line if you don't give me time on your television
I've got something to say don't push me away

(MLTR -breaking the rules)

3 AM we seemed alright

iitk is a whole new world.one keeps on discovering new things on a regular basis.Academically,have never felt so crappy in my life..when marks were not breezing by in the first(or second ;) ) sem,we had a consolation-we hadnt studied to deserve good grades-but as i said,life teaches you new things here-the more you study-the more you come to realize how far away you are from perfection...this sem has been on the exact lines.full stop.


p.s-as the number " 3 AM" by poets of the fall plays in the background,couldnt help but agreeing with these people...

its public!

anyone visiting is welcome to drop in a tear..coz this pathetic punching bag-yours truly-has got just that one shame left to endure,n he wanna experience it all 'dough-all in this life only! :))

fed up of everything

the last two days have been nothing short of hell.... still survived..dont know how long can pull this through though...had faced this ordeal once beforehand...guess being a kid then helped..but unfortunately with the passing years while ive grown up physically the heart has refused to comply,stubbornly...its still fuckingly naive.n that doesnt help.
one gash was enough to test my spirits, god-i' wasnt ready as hell for another-whatever people say,or whatever i try to prove externally all the time-deep inside i know i'm not strong enough.havent been able to forget those nightmares i still get sometimes.
not gonna dive in that mess again-m not gonna get anyone get even remotely close to my vulnerable self.infact lets go on and live life king size dude-as my friends here say-its a fresh feeling of sorts-being all alone again..party hard,set your priorities,organise life..loads to do-but somehow the hitch stays-dont think i will be able to go on this time.
tell you what- i dont want to,either.

its a new world,its a new start...

really.was listening to this number from the god(he has chosen to take the name bryan adams when he sings)n somehow it still seemed fresh.wanna start fresh.wanna be more composed this time.life here at IITK is hectic,to say the least.however,in one year ,this institute has taught me much.it has made me more perserving and sometimes i feel more grown up.
the last year was memorable and equally forgettable -tried my hands on many things-landing successfully at most of the things,but failing miserably on the front which decides almost everything here @ IITK-academics.did i say that i have grown up a bit in the last year?well,the time to put it to test is here ;)
according to the "experienced" seniors here,the third sem is one of the most f*cked up semesters of the entire course-you get an abominable mix of departmentals and general subjects like maths-and you have to tolerate both .thanks however to my luck that i'm not in some holy sh*t like the EE people ,at least we aero heroes wont have to tolerate any loady labs this sem.this really gives people like me a chance to improve--and this is the only reason i have a smile playing on my lips as i type this.just 18 credits,and the time to act mature is now.
thinking of that,of course only a week has passed-and it would be too early to comment-but fortunately uptil now everything is going cool.and mind you,this is an achievement of sorts,esp for me.